For some reason, singing at Radio Bean is easier than singing at home. Maybe it’s because I have a sound system with some reverb as opposed to my rather dry-sounding office. Maybe it’s because I don’t have to worry about waking the kids or disturbing the wife (who would never complain if I did) and I can really let loose. Maybe it’s just the extra energy I get from playing in front of a crowd. Whatever the reason, singing at Radio Bean is different, easier than singing at home, which is kind of weird.
And it’s weird when there are people in front of me who are having conversations with good friends and they need to speak up to hear each other and they want to enjoy my music but they also want to enjoy each other’s company.
And hell, standing up in front of people and playing guitar and singing songs that I’ve spent years and years crafting and practicing; reviewing every single word to make sure it’s the right one (or at least the most right one) to convey the right feeling or message is weird.
And sometimes the weirdness is overwhelming. And I can usually just push through the overwhelming weirdness, but tonight I couldn’t. I had to stop in the middle of a song, recognize the weird, and make my way slowly back into that space where singing in front of people is one the great joys of my life.
But it turned out alright. At the end I felt good. A young woman asked me who wrote one of the songs I sang (it was me!), which is one of the highest compliments anyone can usually give me. Another said that she loved listening and was going to go find my music on iTunes. (She also couldn’t believe that my last name was Busker – her reality was a bit… enhanced, shall we say). And an old high school friend attended and said she will come again with friends.
So it was good. Weirdness be damned!
The Set List:
- For Milly – With Mostly Squalor
- Redemption on Pearl
- Feeling Good (Newley/Bricusse)
- Mind This Mind
- Rehearsing Our Goodbyes
- Stupid Lullaby
- All the Same to You
- Jesus in Chains
- While Watching the Window
- Ordinary Day
- That Person Aside You
- My Fear of Losing You
So thanks everyone for coming. Next show is at Radio Bean on April 1 where I will be your fool.